I am actually still alive.

BLOG! It's been so long! I missed you so much!!!

I'm sorry again for my abandonment. I know you don't want/need/care about excuses, I but I feel that I must at least explain.

If we're being honest, I got caught up in life and I just sort of forgot about you. I know it hurts. I'm sorry. So sorry.

Is it normal that I talk to you like some forgotten hermit crab that has been left to die in the darkness of an unclean cage? That is so sad. I really must stop this.

See, it's graduation that has put me in this somber mood. Not my graduation (praise the lord) but the graduation of the class of 2009. Tonight I volunteered to usher for National Honor Society and then stayed to watch the ceremony. Nicolette and I had first row seats. We watched the people on stage intently as their faces changed, some laughed, many smiled, a good number cried. Nic took loads of pictures for the yearbook. And then, suddenly, after speeches and accolades and much loud applauding-- it was over.

The stage was empty.

And I wanted to cry. Really wanted to cry. Next year it will be me leaving that stage empty, me graduating, ME getting ready to go off to COLLEGE. EWWWWWW. Someone wake me up from this nightmare. I'm afraid. I don't want to grow up.

But at least this year is almost over. I have one day of school left on Monday. Two icky but insignificant little finals and I am home free. But this summer will be different on account of my having a "paid internship" AKA a job at the Boys and Girls Club. I'm excited to be working with the kids and all, but it's a big committment. I won't have nearly as much time to slack off and find inspiration to write :( There's so much to do this summer. Not enough time to lie around like a beached whale at the pool and get a tan. And so I sigh. I think I should go to bed. Things will look brighter after a nice long rest.

Goodbye for now.